Today was so amazingly eye opening. It was my first day of traing for the Therapeutic Riding Association. Im a sidewalker for a handicapped kids. Allowing them the opportunity to get outdoors, (which most of them cant do) and giving them the chance to ride these beautiful creatures. Its amazing how these horses act towards these chrilden. SO loving and caring, like they understand. Its great. Its a huge commitment, every saturday and any other day you can help. Helping these kids and knowing that ur doing something that they look foward to every week, its a real eye opeaner. It was a great experiance. =]

Well allwho cares to listen: Im doing pretty good. And why wouldnt I be? I mean I got the man of my dreams who is there beside me all the way plus more. My family and I are doing good, we are all finally getting along. I love my lil baby Kaitlyn Nichole, (my nease). And to top it all off, I think Im pregnet. And not saying that thats a good thing or a bad thing, but if it happens, it happens, and theres nothing that is gunna stop me from loving that baby more then anything in this world, (well, and my baby). What am I gunna do?

OMFG!!!! Why does all this bullshit have to be so hard? He cant seem to make up his mind, which to me, shouldnt be that hard. But whatever. Thats crunk. And nobody has the slightest clue bout what im talkin bout, and if u think u do...u dont. And lets just keep it that way. Aight? Aight? Aight?

Keith Urban- Tonight I wanna Cry.



"Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let got of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way"

( tonight i wanna cry....)

AGRHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mood: ..guess
Listening to: Ur not alone tonight-Keith Urban

WTF? Damn. I keep missing him. Well not exactly, but kinda. Okay it all started like a week or so ago, anyways, this guy, that me and my cousin called "pirate boy"...inside joke..dont ask. But dammit i dunno i cant expalin it. But back to what i was sayin. We just saw em again at...ummm...Joann Fabrics (sp?) or whatever, guess he has a job there too. I dunno. And we just keept missin eachother, and then finally, he was like hold on babe, right fuckin then their like come on lets go...omfg. I was soooo tryin to stall, but damn. Maybe Ill run into him again soon...hopefully.

Ur not alone tonight-Keith Urban

"We all drink to forget
Some of us more than most
When reality gets too real
And the fires of hell to close
But I'm here to let you know that
That you can make it through
If you believe that someone is watchin' over you

And call it an angel
Call it a muse
And call it karma that you've got comin' to you
What's the difference
What's in name
What matters most is never ever losin' faith
'Cause it's gonna be alright
You're not alone tonight

We all have our days
When nothing goes as planned
Not a soul in the world
Seems to understand
And for someone to talk to
You'd give anything
Well go on and cry out loud
'Cause someone's listenin'

Yeah, and call it an angel
Call it a muse
And call it karma that you've got comin' to you
What's the difference
What's in name
What matters most is never ever losin' faith
'Cause it's gonna be alright
You're not alone tonight

Keep your faith alive
You're not the only one

Yeah, and call it an angel
Call it a muse
Call it karma that you've got comin' to you
What's the difference
What's in name
What matters most is never ever losin' faith
Yeah, you're gonna be alright
You're not alone tonight

Oh you can cry if you want to, go on..."

Leave me the fuck alone